drink some more beer

2002-05-28, 10:23 a.m.

i am not really sure what to think of this but... danie wants us to see other people or as she puts it become "non exclusive" i have always thought this might be a good idea to give me a chance to play the feild a little before i dedecate the rest of my life to someone. she says i can do whatever i want to just as long as i dont tell her about it. i really do want to do this but i feel so guilty about it. i dont want to hurt danie and i know even with her permission i would feel guilty being with someone else. not just that but do i have the time, with everything going on i barley even have time to update my diary.

the logic behind this is to get all of the fear of being married out of my system by having some fun and being with other women. she gave me her ingagment ring and said put it somewhere until you are ready to get married, then propose to me all over again but like its the first time. that sounds sweet i know. but what are the chances this thing will work it self out. so i start going out on dates with oter girls, she goes on dates with other guys we are both jealous all hell then we sleep in the same bed at night. she says everything will be the same in our lives exept the fact that we are non excluisive.

well hell i say im going to give it a shot. what do i have to loose? a realationship that i have not been sure about for like 3 or 4 years running. bad things could and probanbly will come of this, but before this day we were just being danie and mike, her wishing i would want to gwt married to her, and me with i could go and talk to that cute brunette that just walked by. so in the end this could be the best thing for the both of us. i hope.

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